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Salam all.
It’s been months since I wrote the last post gosh Aini Syahirah. I’m truly sorry for not being able to keep the entries updated ‘cause I’ve been dealing with a disease. (I named it procrastination hehe) #pray4meguys
Anyway, back to the topic, recently I just found myself easily butt-hurt with advices that my family/ friends gave me. Even sometimes, they don’t even say it to me, but I still think that that comment is for me. Buat teruk ja lel.
At that moment, what they say on their insta stories, I feel offended.
What they tweeted, I feel like it is addressed to me.
Whatever they said, in my mind, I was like “Are you trying to critic me, honey?!”
And the worst thing is when some of them directly criticised me, I hold grudges. I started to feel uncomfortable with those fella. I began to dislike them.
But, at the end of the day, I realised that what they said is true. I hate to admit that, BUT IT IS INDEED THE TRUTH.
I also knew that my name was not even in their posts, not even being mentioned in their stories, so why on earth am I being extremely offended? Such an ill-minded person. Sigh.
I realised that this kind of act, thinking that “I’m under attack by those nice people” will harm me in future. I realised that the reason why I butthurt to what they said is because I did those things that they nagged about. I feel insecure because of my bad habits.
These thoughts make me noticed that I have to start improving myself. I need to eliminate the flaws. Get rid those shitty attitude. Be a nicer person. Accept critics with open heart. I need to be more rational. I should be grateful for having people around me who are still care about me. *thank you guys*
So instead of being resentful, I should learn to repent. Frequent self-reflection should be in my resolutions list. (And frequently update the blog too lol) Anyway, I sincerely ask you who read this to correct me if I’m wrong and to happily give constructive criticism if I’m slack in any of the stuffs I’m working on.
For the sake of our self-development, let’s give constructive comments to our friends,families and even to those we don’t know & learn to accept the fact that we are not perfect and people did that just to see us becoming a better individual. Cheers.
Still learning how to manage my anger,
Aini Syahirah
