Thursday, 1 February 2018

MOVE IN & MOVE ON




Salam all and hi.

First of all, I would like to congratulate those who just passed their exam weeks and now are enjoying their sem break which I wish I am too. (Un)Fortunately, I am currently doing my summer class and we have gone thru the first half of the course already. Yayyy omg I should congratulate myself too! *pat my shoulder* 

Besides that, another thing that happened to me last month was I MOVED IN TO A NEW PLACE. Alhamdulillah. From being a resident at Malaysia Hall Melbourne to a housemate to my housemates lol. It has been a year since I learned to do almost everything by my own. Pay the rent and utilities, buy groceries and cook for myself, deal with real problems that made my head ached etc. These adulting things made me miss my childhood more. And even sometimes made me homesick. 

I did cried when I have hormonal imbalances or maybe when I just feeling like to. Being moody for the fact that I have to be an adult now. Being immature for the fact that I have to start being mature now. 

But then, I wiped the tears. I bought chocolate or Pidapipo ice cream to make myself happy. I tried to socialise and get to know more people to learn from their life experiences. I challenged myself to be mature and professional. 

Because at the end of the day, I know, I mean we all know, that time won’t go backwards. We’ll be older day by day. So bear with it.

Move on, honey.

“But, it’s so hard to move on when you are too attached to something.”

Dude, I get whatchu mean. I really do. 

When I was during my transition period from a Syeder to Unimelb-ian, I struggled a lot with my emotions. Since I have the best friends that I could have had during my high school time, I tend to compare them with my new friends here. And also I was deeply in love with the way my teachers used to teach us back in Tun Syed, now I hate the way the lectures were held here. What an immature girl I was, I know. 

As you can see, what I listed just now were my problems. Those things that deter me to move on. Those things that keep me tangled with my awesome past experiences. I used to look at ‘em as setbacks until one day, I can’t hold it anymore. I can’t live in present hoping it to be the same with the past. So I tried to change my perspective. I tried to view those problems now, as a starting point for me, to move on. 

I tried to spend more time with my friends, even though it was sooooo freaking awkward at first, I tried to act cool like I'm not affected at all lol. We make plans together, have brunch, study group, sleepover bla bla bla. And it turned out not that bad. We are now even planning for our New Zealand trip (OMG!!). But for the lectures, I cant do anything much about it haha. You just have to accept the fact that your spoon-feed method of learning is outdated. The latest one now is I’m-gonna-just-read-the-slides method. Deal with it fam. Haha. 

Oh and one more thing, be adventurous. For me, I try to mingle up with people outside of my comfort zone like the locals, the elite and seniors. This helps me to always keep myself challenged and improve my skills. You can get to know a lot of interesting things from them too e.g you can use phosphorus to keep raccoon away from your place. How cool is that right?! Other than that, you can try those activities that you wished to do. For instance, I really wanna do boxing. So I joined this one female-only gym and I'm now not just being able to learn boxing, I do piloxing toooooo which is way cooler than boxing haha. So mate, keep yourself busy with good things. Force yourself do beneficial stuffs to distract yourself from the past. Then, insyaAllah, sooner or later, you’ll be able to move your ass on. 

Aight? Give it a try and share your experience here! I would loooove to know. 

See you guys in the next post. Cheers.

Still trying to move forward,
Aini Syahirah


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